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So a while back about a month or so. I woke up to a really sharp pain right under my rib cage. I wasn't so sure what it was and why I was having these pains. I called my mother knowing that she would know what to do about the pain. Thinking maybe she might know what this pain is and why it’s happening. My mother told me to wake my brother up to take me to the ER because she thought that something with my Gallbladder. It's hard for me to ask for help like that.

By the time we go to the ER I didn't even really feel the pain any more. It wasn't too long after being there that the pain came back. They gave me some drug to help with the pain. At one point they seemed not to make the pain any less then what I was feeling before. When the pain left the last time it finally felt like it was over.

My mother was right it was my Gallbladder that was the problem. It was trying to pass a stone. The doctor said I need to get it removed and also put me on strict low fat diet. I have lost some weight form this diet. Also, it was a good way to just start my weight loss. I have also joined the gym to help with the weight loss.

Now the only think that I seem to be waiting for is the surgery that will take out my Gallbladder. This morning I had a call that woke me up to tell me that they need to change my appointment. I had to wait for me to have health insurance before I did the surgery. So when they called I didn't want to change my appointment I have been waiting a month to get in to this doctor to see about getting this fix and now he wanted to change the appointment. It's hard to have something like that happen. I am just proud that I finally stood up for myself there are just something that I need to stand up to.

It’s so hard for me to be on this diet. I want French fries so bad. I just want to be able to have a day where I can actually eat something. There really isn't much you can it on a low fat diet. Yes, our bodies need fat also. But when your body stops being able to help itself break down those fats it’s not good. With removal of the Gallbladder you can still brake down those fats but in a different way.

I am just scared that I'm not losing the weight the right way and its going to come back. I am tired of being overweight tired of not being seen by people because of my weight. I just want to feel healthy again. I want to be able to run a mile without dieting. I want to wear a sexy dress. There are a lot of people out there that want to feel the same about their weight. I know this because they have shows about teenagers who want to change their life by losing weight before college and keep it off. I want to keep it off for good. I know changing a life style is hard but it’s what I am willing to take.