Life

Today, I received a little reminder that life is short. Sometimes I wish that I could find what I am really good at. I do so many different things its hard to decide what I am truly in love with. I enjoy writing, painting, ceramics, architecture, art history, interior design, furniture design, and pretty much anything creative. I know that creativity is always there I just need to know where I can actually use my creative skills.

I wonder if there is any one out there that has been where I am right now. Someone to tell me what to do how to approach this big elephant in my life. I don't know if everyone goes through this but I know that I am having a HARD time coping with all of this.

This reminder is something that I am going to have to deal with one day. This reminder is Death. He has every ones calling card its just knowing that what you did with your life is worth it. I have had a major death happen in my life when I was young and it changed everything in my life back then. I want changes to happen in my life now to show me the way life should be going. I feel that there is a lot of things that I have yet to experience.

One day everything is going to come to me and it will be the greatest day. I know that God will guide me to where I need to go with my life. God has become an important part of my life. I am new to Christianity but I feel that I know a lot about God but I feel my Faith is weak. I want to grow in Christ. May Christ be with you...

Going For a Walk

Today I decided to go for a walk today. I have been meaning to do it more often just for the work out. Today seemed like the perfect day for that. It was really nice out side the sun was shining and everything. I walked through the neighborhood looking around and just taking in everything around me.



I saw why my grandfather walked those streets every day. It was amazing how beautiful the world seems with all the destruction of the world. The I ended up at the park that my grandfather always ended up at. Looks like they did a lot of work on the park since the last time I was there.

They made it where you can walk all the way down the hill to another park area at the bottom.. You could walk down one side and up the other. It was beautiful. You can see the whole city form that park. I was so inspired to go back again tomorrow. Maybe I'll see something new. The world is full of surprises.



This walking will help me physically and emotionally. The beauty is just so amazing.. I think I will bring my bible and my sketch book to more and maybe create some beautiful art work.

I am going to attach some pictures to show you the things that I discovered today.

Sorry lifes been a little crazy...

So, life has been quite as it should be. I think I have failed the whole take a picture a day thing. I still take photos often just not enough. I really am in this gutter trying to find my way out. The things that I have done in the last 11 months..

Graduated college in July
Bought a lemon for a car
Jobless once again
Moved to New Mexico
living with brother

Right now in life I am just trying to figure out how to get a job. Right now the Job market sucks because everyone is like trying to get a job at the same time as me. There was a lot of hope in the beginning but now I am really losing hope. But I know that I have to take it one day at a time before things can get any better. I have been watching a lot of TV and Im not enjoying it like I use to.

I really want to change how I think about my self and what is going on in my life. Its like I dont know what to do with my life any more. I didn't really plan for anything after I was done with college I dont dont know if anyone else has had this prblem. Some times I wish I knew someone that had gone throught this whole jobless after college thing.

Some time I question if college was even worth it. Its a whole lot of deit and it seems that I am not going to get any better pay then I did before I graduated college. I find my self living under a rock for a while would be a better way of say what college did for me. I dont think it really perpared me for the world after college. I miss the structure and what was going to happen next in my life. I also ask the question if I should just go back to school and get a degree in something else. Its like one of those day that never seems to end for me.

I think and I think about everything that is happening in my life and what isnt happening. Like I would really love to either have a big group of friends or a boyfriend to talk to sometimes. Which brings me to another problem that has been happening in my life.

Why do I always seem to fall for someone that cant be with me or just doesnt have the desire to be with me. Its like tells of tells. I just dont want to end up being alone for the rest of my life and not sharing my life with the people around me. I ask God a lot to show me what I need to be doing in my life... But he has said nothing yet to me. Like I need to do something first before I become what I need to be come. I know what he will show me the way.

Up Date On Project 365

Well, I have to be honest with you I haven't been taking pictures everyday. I am still going to keep trying this Project I want to show you some of the things that I have been taking pictures of. I guess i can start from where I left off. The first one after the last time I posted was of my moms cat who finially warmed up to me again. took me being there for almost two weeks but what can I say.

I traveled a lot on in the last couple of weeks. First I made my way from my mother's house to a museum where I saw a show on Ansel Adams. After seeing the show I got to see my very first Super Target. It was so cool never thought I would ever see one. Then I turned around and drove to New Mexico so that I could catch my way back to Arkansas, where I go to school. Adams was just an amazing show.

There is so much I don't know about photography. Adams showed so many different types of ideas behind photography it was like I was discovering it for the first time. It also inspired me to become a photographer with the focus of developing my own works. I think that alone is an art form. I would like to show that its something that will never be lost if we don't let it become extinct.

If you don't know anything about Ansel Adams I could describe him in words but I don't think that would be enough. I could say this Adams has a thing for showing textures that happen in the world. It was like actually seeing things through his eyes. There were things that I also discovered about him is that he also took pictures of flowers, and people. It was so shocking to see. I always saw Adams as a landscape photographer.


But over the last week I have been trying to get in to my old grove. It's really hard for me because I am taking more hours then I have ever done before. But While doing that I took over 240 Pictures in two days. But none where that great but I do have some that are quite interesting but I am only going to post two of them.

Sorry readers its been a while but its been very busy. I hope your new year is going well.

New Meaning to Dear in Head Lights

Well today photo is a moment I don't think I'll ever forget. I took this picture with the flash which is different from me. I normally try and take it with out the flash. So, that you can see the natural colors of things.

I don't have a famous photographer for today. But I do know that there are several of us out there who are trying to become one of those famous photographers. So keep up the good work our time will come.

Project 365

Happy New Year everyone. There are a few things that I have decided to take on one of them is: Project 365 is about taking photograph everyday to see where the year takes you. I think that this would be something good for me too. But I think I want to step it up by also introducing a New Photographer from The Photo Book. Which will help me discover new and creative ideas about photography.

I think I would like to show the last semester of college and then the start of my life after college. I don't know how its going to turn out but I do know one thing. well today is the day.. well here is my first photograph.


This is a photo of my moms living room looking out side. I just love how the lace is and how you can see the sun through it... and the darkness of how the room looks. I just love sharp contrast and how they make things look. Playing with light is one of the key elements in art.

I think the first photographer that I would like to talk about is Horst P. Horst. I think he uses light to develop strong contrast from. the photo I am going to show you is called Mainbocher's Pink Satin Corset and was taken in 1939 using Gelatin silver print. Gelatin silver is a process that was use to develop black and white photography using silver salts in gelatin. More can be read about this process at Wikipedia.

Horst seems to have been talented in using the light around him to create such great photography. He had a good span of sixty years where he became famous for his art. He mostly did fashion photography for places such as French Vogue. He didn't start our as a photographer he ended up going to war before he discovered his passion. He has amazing web sit that shows off a lot of his work and tells you a little more about his work. www.horstphorst.com

I think the Horst is one of my favorite photographers. I really enjoy the process of creating photography in a dark room being able to edit them and make them as big as I can. The whole presses seems to drive my creativity. It took me a long time to realize that, that is the way I want to go with my art. Learning everything I can about art can only help me to develop my eye for a good layout.