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Have you ever wondered what you would be like when your old and are at the end of your life? I didn't really think about it all that much until I started helping my mother with taking care of my grandmother. It's not something that someone my age would normally think about.

It's been a while since I have seen my grandmother but my mother always keeps me up to date on how she is doing. Well lately my mother has slowly been telling me that everything is getting worse with my grandmother. She has Altimeters and it gets worse every day. The one thing that made it real to me is when my mother told me what she was told by a nurse. The nurse works at my grandmother's nursing home. She told my mother that they found my grandmother picking her own poop out of her butt. It was something that I wasn't ever expecting. I just want life to be easy all the time. Or at least get easier as we get older.

This new scared the crap out of me like no other. I didn't really know what to think about getting older. It's doesn't seem like I'll be the lucky type and miss out on this gene. As it happens my grandfather on my dads side also had this sickness. So it's like a double whammy. I just don't want to be seen like that. I want to be able to know who my grandchildren or children are when I die. I don't want them to have bad memories of me being sick. I just wish that life didn't have to be so hard on us.


What one thing about getting old do you wish never existed? If you could change anything about your family what would it be? And, why?