Jolt

So, there has been a lot on my mind lately. Everything in my life seems to be sorda coming together but there is a lot that I feel is missing. I am not saying that I'm not happy just that there is still things I would like to do. Everything that has been happening has been in the last couple of weeks.

The first thing that I had the first guy hit on me and asked me for my number. It was a big shock to me. So I gave him my number and that night he started txting me. He seemed like an interesting guy. I wasn't to sure about him. I just had this gut feeling that I know what was going to happen with this guy but I really wanted to see where things would go. So he came over one night to watch a movie with me. It was suprizing that he didn't try anything with me. It made me feel confertable with him a little. We sorda fell asleep which was kind of bad because I had to kick him out so that I could get ready for work the next day. That night I didn't sleep that well. But one night when I was at the gym (where I meet the guy) he was talking to me about a business opertonuty. Which just thorw me off. I just didn't know where to go from there. We were talking and then he finially came out and said what he was looking for. He wanted to have a friends with benefits relationship. I am at a point in my life when that type of relationship isn't what I am looking for. I haven't really heard from him sence I told him how I felt about that type of relationship.

The next thing is I am really thinking about becoming a teacher. It's something that I never really though about because I didn't feel like I would be a good teacher. But I have come to realize that I wont know how good of teacher I will be until I try. I just want to be able to share my love of art with another generation. I want them to know how important art is to our culture. I think that there is a lot that needs to be done in this world to show how much art we use everyday.

The last thing that has been on my mind is well my health. I have been working out and eating differently. I also have a surgery that is coming up. I think that their is a reason for everything to be changing in my life. They are going to be talking out my gallbladder. I don't know how this is going to change my mutablizum. I just know that I am losing weight and enjoying the out come of it all. I think I just need something to get me jump started. I would really love to be in the hundrads again. I know that would be a better weight scale to be at. They tell me now that I am obse even thou I have never been there. I guess the only thing I can do is to keep working at it. I will definatly keep you posted on everything that is going on.